Part 1 of 3: The Transformation Process

It's been on my heart and mind to explore this topic lately, so hopefully everything comes out the way it is supposed to and the Holy Spirit will use these words to speak to someone who may be on the fence about taking the next step and needs a gentle push!

Going into my third month of coaching and the launch of Butterfly Beginnings along with the small group I started at my house, I've noticed that several people express interest in changing, but they don't follow through with it. For this post I want to focus on taking that leap of faith, jumping in head first, taking the bull by the horn, biting the bullet, however you want to phrase it. ACTION. FOLLOW-THROUGH. 

What takes someone from wanting something and saying they will commit to it to actually DOING IT?

So many reasons and excuses and justifications come to mind, and for so many different areas of life. That is what it is, right? We have expressed an interest and the desire is there, but there is a catch that is stopping us. It could be as simple as "I would if I had more time" or "I don't have the money", or  "I don't know how". In each area, we all have goals and ideas of how we think things should be and what we need to do to get us there, the problem is all the wishing in the world isn't going to move you from point A to point B. You need to take ACTION. I think to best address this issue we need to look at from two different perspectives. Not ready to give up what we have vs. Not ready to not know what is ahead.

Not ready to give up what we have
When we don't do what we say we are going to do we may just be being selfish and stubborn. If you look at this in terms of  a healthy eating and exercise plan, sure we want to be healthy BUT we may not want to give up our daily muffin or cupcake or glass of wine or soda or (insert food here). This begs the question, "Are you not ready or are you not willing?". We may like our life. It is predictable controllable and uneventful (in a good way), and when we entertain the idea of a new way of eating or living or thinking it can be scary. I've said it before, but it's worth saying again, THERE IS COMFORT IN THE FAMILIAR, even when it is not healthy. 

To be ready is not the same to be willing. Let's look at John 5:5-9 where Jesus heals at the pool of Bethesda.

"One who was there had been an invalid for thirty-eight years. When Jesus saw him lying there and learned that he had been in this condition for a long time, he asked him, “Do you want to get well?” “Sir,” the invalid replied, “I have no one to help me into the pool when the water is stirred. While I am trying to get in, someone else goes down ahead of me.”Then Jesus said to him, “Get up! Pick up your mat and walk.”  At once the man was cured; he picked up his mat and walked."

Even as I read it now, I smile to myself because I so glaringly see the excuses the man was trying to give. How many times do we make excuses like this? The man SAID he was ready to be healed but he did nothing to show that he was ready. We say we want to eat healthy, we say we want to have a better relationship with a spouse or family member, we say we are interested in knowing God's plan for our life, but when it comes down to it, do our actions match our words, or are we caught up in our own pride and sense of self that we are not willing to more forward?

"In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead." James 2:17

So what does it take for us to forge ahead? In terms of not doing something because we are still holding onto selfish wants and desires, this can be sign that the enemy might be uninvited guest in this area of your life. He is telling you don't have time for this, you have more important things to do and it is a waste of money. He is telling you that you've done everything and it doesn't matter what else you do it's not going to make any difference. This reminds me of someone who reached out to me to be coached, and expressed extreme interest, but backed out when it was all said and done. Something (someone) had prompted her to respond to me, she even said it was out of character for her to do so, and felt that the Holy Spirit was leading her to me, but she didn't see it through. We need to get out of our own way, but we can't do it by ourselves. We need to have faith in order to do that.

Not ready to not know what is ahead

I'll be the first to admit, personal and spiritual growth is a scary thing because you don't know what to expect. You can't CONTROL the outcome, and quite frankly it is like wandering around in the dark with only a little light to see what is just before you so don't fall or trip over something. We don't like it when we don't have control, but FAITH is letting go of control, and really realizing that you never had it in the first place. When Jesus asked the man, "Do you want to get well" he knew the answer, but he needed to see the man show faith by following the direction he gave him. Yes, not knowing is scary, and I'm sure when the man heard Jesus tell him to walk (meanwhile knowing full well that he was paralyzed), he thought of 10000 excuses and reasons not to do it. But he chose to get up and walk. Jesus empowered him to take that next step (literally) but he had to trust in him first.

The three parts of this "series" (if you want to call it that) are: TRUST GOD, LET GOD, and SHOW GOD.

What I've talked about above is trust in God. You trust that he has something better planned for you, and that he is with you every step of the way. You trust him by not only saying but by doing. You trust him by neglecting you self-focused ways to take the next step that he has called to do. In trust, we only get a small amount of light (direction), which still doesn't tell us how everything is going pan out. But that little light is enough to get us to where we need to go, one step at a time, and we just need to stay out of our own way.

I really thought that I was being prompted to write a message about why you need a spiritual life coach and why you need to make the investment to better yourself, but now I see that he has empowered me to encourage you to take that next step yourself. You want to be well? You want to know and live out God's purpose for your life? Pick up your mat and walk. Be ready and willing to commit to what he has placed inside of you, no matter what the cost.

Next post will be in a few days, thank you for reading! I leave you with this:

Your word is a lamp to guide my feet, a light for my path  Psalm 119:105

So I made a Youtube video........

I have launched my Chazown small group over facebook and this video is what I uploaded to explain God's vision for my life to my group members. It is crazy how a lifetime of everything I've experienced and the transformation tha has occured over the past few months was able to be summarized in under 12 minutes. ENJOY!


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ldc-vnSQ-T8

The Time is NOW!

Have you ever started something and then stopped after a short time? Do you have all these grand plans and never start them?Where are you in your walk with the Lord? Do you feel spiritually "stuck" or even stuck in a phase of your life that you feel like you can't get out of?

We've all been there. I've been there. I'm taking the opportunity in this post to discuss all the things I've been up against, fought against and how the Lord is working in my life.

After my own personal coaching journey I've continued my "quiet time" in the mornings. It is in these moments that I am able to sit in silence, pray and journal and reflect on myself and my relationship with God. I wouldn't trade this time for anything in the world but I certainly wasn't always this way. It wasn't until after my coaching experience that I was able to have consistent quiet time.

My life coach challenged me to think beyond surface level excuses as to why I had no time to pray or journal or that I was too "tired". When I first sat down with her to set a goal I knew that in an ideal world I wanted to start my day off with the Lord, but I was afraid that I wouldn't really stick to it or not have time for it. She challenged me to explore the reasons I wasn't already doing it. Through these types of questions, I discovered it was fear that was holding me back. I've shared my past insecurities in previous posts, but this fear was that I wasn't good enough or didn't know enough about God to have quiet time. With my life coach I was able to explore small steps to take to connect with God and not feel like I'm undeserving or unable to perform contemplative prayer the right way.

There is no way to accurately explain the transformation and growth that occurred in my spirit after I realized my identity in God and his purpose for my life. The Holy Spirit was present in every coaching conversation I had and I was determined to "live by the spirit." I prayed that I would live by the spirit and not be ruled by fear. I prayed that I would fearlessly walk and welcome any situation that would transform me so that I can fulfill what God has called me to do.

God gave me a very clear answer: "The Time is Now!"

Of course this is also the title of a series that a small group I am in is going through. It is a study of the book of Haggai and it's been clear that everything related to this study is directly for me.

1. God gives us steps one at a time to follow and we may not know the big picture, but it is when we are obedient and follow steps 1,2, and 3 that we will be able to continue on to 4,5, and 6.

2. Resistance and opposition is stronger when you are following God's plan for your life  When the naysayers are everywhere and  people are looking at you like you're crazy, you're on the right track!

3. When that resistance comes, and it gets hard and we want to give up, we need to be strong in the strength that is not our own, and continue to do the work.

Following God's will does not mean that it will be easy, but it be worth it. (Just think of the Apostle Paul!)

Everything I have faced in my life, every circumstance, every decision and every obstacle has prepared me for what my kingdom purpose is. I would not have known that had I not started on a journey with a christian life coach to help me discover these things.

My life is not my own, it belongs to my heavenly father and time spent away from Him is time wasted. You are not living unless you live for him and his purpose and I can help you achieve that. My mission is to help those of you that may feel "spiritually stuck" or wish to live out your purpose that was given to you by him.

There is no better time than NOW to start opening your heart and allowing him to transform you. That is what Butterfly Beginnings is all about. It is about complete transformation, It is when who you were and who you are in Christ no longer look alike. The butterfly no longer looks like the caterpillar and once it is transformed it has faith and is given wings to fly. Please look at my page on facebook  www.facebook.com/butterflybeginningsgrowthcoaching and strongly consider participating in a free book study that will start to answer some of the questions about God's vision for your life.

The study is "Chazown" by Craig Groeschel and it will start on February 1. To sign up just message my page or even like the post on my page.

If you are interested in growth coaching or want to learn more information please also message Butterfly Beginnings, I would love to help you get started on your own transformation!

Yes I am a personal and spiritual growth coach. Yes I am new to this career, but experience pales in comparison to what God has placed inside of me. Connection. Community. Consistency. My coaching and my book study will provide these crucial elements necessary for a healthy spiritual relationship.

"Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come." 
2 Corinthians 5:17.

2016 - What is in store for me?

I officially graduated when I coached my trainer one last time just to iron out the details on December 21. I felt a sense of joy and relief, but it was soon coupled with worry and uncertainty.

Ok so I completed the training, NOW WHAT? WHERE DO I GO FROM HERE?

I prayed hard and looked for signs and answers and made up things I thought were signs and answers all the while something much better was taking place. I hate admitting this, but it was like I was giving God an ultimatum in a way, or at least putting contingencies on his power and plan for me. (Lord I know that if this person responds after sending her this then I know this is a sign to take coaching into a business)

Ha. Who am I to to make such demands? I am not going to tell him what to do because he is not going to do it. Ultimately I don't want him to give me what I want, I want him to give me what is best and what he has planned for me. It is worth mentioning that even though my official internship is over ,I still meet and talk with my client, as we have somewhat adjusted our relationship into that of peer accountability". After talking with her the other morning, I also called my mom where I openly shared the above realization with her. Not a second later than me saying " I am going to stop trying to make things happen and just let them happen" does the other line ring in and it is a women that I had emailed the previous night asking if she would mentor me.

We spoke for about an hour, she asked me questions about my vision, my goals, my ideas and my passion for where I wanted to take my coaching. I could not really answer those questions, but I told her that money was not really important to me. It is more important that I would be able to help people either rediscover or discover their purpose and God's plan for their lives. I want to work with "spiritually stagnant" people and help them grow closer to God. As my internship client said that once God was number one, EVERYTHING else in her life improved. (Side note that on the last day of formal coaching I asked her to rate the areas in the wheel of life again and in all areas she rated much higher). This is the same message I want to share with other people I coach.

The mentor coach I spoke with gave me ideas of how to proceed through her own story of getting started and how that changed slightly from year to year. While I do not have a background in offering retreats as she did,  I do have the acknowledgement that while in prayer I have felt that I should start a small group (I have felt this way for awhile now, at least a few months).

I thought that having a small group would limit what I did with my coaching into a specific ministry, however while researching bible studies over the internet I learned that it will just be the beginning,

After the study on "Chazown", participants are asked to come with a SMART goal. It is from this goal that they are to take the next steps to fully embracing God's chazown, or vision for their life. It is also from a SMART goal that coaching journey is born.

So there are the next steps, I am taking coaching into my church to fully help people embrace their unique purpose by doing the "Chazown" series and I am also offering additional one-on-one help with SMART goals and accountability after the program is finished.

Much like the decision to pursue coaching, I feel a sense of excitement and calm about the next move. I know that eventually I may also take the Chazown study and do it online, offering the exact same thing to people all of the world who want to discover God's vision for their lives. So if you are reading this and interested, stay tuned because a website, facebook page and online bible study offering will all be in the works!

I have named my "business" Butterfly Beginnings. This symbolizes the transformation that occurs when we become reborn as a result of the holy spirit inside of us.

Jesus replied, “Very truly I tell you, no one can see the kingdom of God unless they are born again" John 3:3

As 2015 comes to a close I am grateful for many things, and the main one being my heavenly father taking me and reshaping me and transforming me as his disciple. I have no "New Years Resolutions" (as research says they will mostly likely fail). Instead I have promises to uphold Christ-like character and be obedient to him.

These "promises" consist of 21 days of prayer and fasting that start on Sunday. I am ready to commit to 21 days of prayer and pray for whatever is laid on my heart. I am committed to the fast, because it will be a fast from sugar, caffeine, meat, dairy and gluten. I will eat only fruits and vegetables and nuts and seeds for 21 days. I do this not as a way to lose holiday weight, but in utmost devotion to my Lord and Savior.

I will continue to arm myself  and protect against inferior thoughts, not letting the enemy infiltrate my mind anymore with lies and false truths. In everything I do I will honor and respect my body and myself as they do not belong to me.

 "Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies." ! Corinthians 6:19-20

Catch Up from Last Month- My "Aha moment" before Graduation

Wow! I just noticed that it has been since November 8th since I posted! So much has happened since then, one thing is that I am no longer training to be a life coach, I am now a certified growth coach (which I happen to like the name better than life coach anyway)

The weeks from early November until now have been all over the place, good, bad, beautiful, ugly, happy and sad. When I started coaching internship is when I let things slack, but it is also when I grew the most in understanding my identity in Christ. I specifically grew the most when I was challenged with specific feedback towards the end of the program.

My trainer gave me feedback one week during my 3-way session with her and my peer coach to get out of "task-mode" and becoming more emotionally in tune with the client. I thought at first this was strange, since I know that I have a tendency to become TOO emotionally involved and invested when client's share their stories. Apparently I was working hard not to absorb their emotion too much and it came across as "checking off boxes" and moving from step to step of the model we were taught to use. I listened to a recording of my coaching session with my internship client and saw that she was correct, you could hear the mental shift in my voice and it proved to be disengaging.

That next week I coached as many people as I could (that would let me) trying to focus on emotional tone and not to switch over to logical tone. When the next peer session came around I thought for sure that I had nailed it, she gave us a practice session before we went into our actual sessions and during that time is when I lost it.

The feedback I was getting was I still wasn't emotionally invested and it did not seem like I was engaged (which could not have been farther from the truth!) I didn't understand what she was talking about! I had changed my voice to be low, non-threatening and nurturing and now she said that it was emotionless, well what in the world was she looking for?! I didn't know and at that point, I just lost it. Everything became too much to handle and my feelings were hurt and I was confused to the point where I had a breakdown.

I will spare some of the details, but basically I was crying so hard and so uncontrollably that it was hard to breathe. I was unable to be coached because a whole host of emotions overtook me and it was overwhelming. Luckily, I had a chat with my peer coach and we decided that even though I was hurt by the feedback I got and took it personally, I was not a quitter and I would coach her instead.

For whatever reason that breakdown was exactly what I needed, everything transitioned seamlessly after that. The coaching, the emotional connecting, everything clicked. I had had a barrier and a disconnect from feeling close to God and I think getting to that point and after that breakthrough I just allowed everything I was trying to carry myself to be released. It has been several weeks since that occurred, but I do remember feeling at peace, and coming to a hard realization that would put my strength and my discipline to the test in order to beat my eating demon for good (which I still haven't done, but that is a whole other discussion in itself!)

In coaching we talked about take away messages, and how having a take away from a Aha moment gives it more meaning to you and allows you to remind yourself of the simple truth whenever you need to.

My take away was simple, and it was what everyone had been telling me and I had been hearing for awhile, but for whatever reason I didn't get it until I GOT it.

Emotions are blessings.

Being able to feel emotions in a deep and powerful way is a blessing. 

I am reminded of Jesus having strong emotions and not trying to hide them, he openly was both angered and sad at one point or another.

"Jesus wept." John 11:35

"And Jesus entered the temple[and drove out all who sold and bought in the temple, and he overturned the tables of the money-changers and the seats of those who sold pigeons. He said to them, “It is written, ‘My house shall be called a house of prayer,’ but you make it a den of robbers.” Matthew 21:12-13

The thought then occurred to me that I did not need to judge emotions as good or bad or try to not feel them, but instead let myself feel every emotion and not suppress them. I know it sounds simple in theory, but in reality it is much harder. I have walked a path of coping all of my life and now I'm trying to create a new path of coping that can override the well beaten path in which, while dysfunctional, was my normal and predictable pattern. Dysfunctional becomes normal and known, and it is your security, because you know how to adjust and behave and do so from either point of extremes.

Ahh but what happens when you leave that well beaten path and create a new one? A path that is unfamiliar and unpredictable. This requires intention and effort as taking the old path is more or less "automatic" and easier to do. Where would I get this intention and effort to make a new way?

Faith. Unwavering, humbling, gracious, and fearless faith. I've hear people say that faith is the absence of fear, I think that faith is pressing on IN SPITE of your fear. It is having those thoughts of doubt and feeling unsure, but instead of indulging in those thoughts, choosing to press on into what you are called to do as a child of Christ.

I know that I have some reoccurring themes in my blog posts, as these are the things I am most passionate about. Taking all that I know and all that I have experienced and putting complete faith in God, allows him control my life and because I know my father loves me, I feel a sense of relief to not have to try to orchestrate my life. instead it was planned long also.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord. plans to prosper you and not to harm, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11

Coaching in the Real World

After the last part of our workshop on Thursday, I sent over the paperwork for my internship client to take a look at before Saturday. Luckily in the workshop we got to practice what we would do for our first coaching session. After going through what I was going to say while reviewing the contract, I  became very excited and ready for the coaching session. Saturday morning could not come soon enough!

Saturday morning did come, and I met my client at the library where we had our first session in a private study room. Between Thursday and Saturday I had rehearsed what was going to say when going over the paperwork, but I wasn't really sure what I wanted to say when I was to share my life story.

The contract talk was easy, and while my life story was abbreviated, it painted a good picture of how my childhood, recent revelations and faith in God have lead me to point I am at today. We learned in class to share personal details to catalyze authenticity, and I was happy when my client shared very personal details regarding their life story. Their ability to open up about their past helps me a coach to better understand them.

After sharing stories, we looked at one of the coaching tools, The Wheel of Life, to determine the level of satisfaction within the different areas. They stepped through each area and gave feedback for each part. At the end I brought up the 3 areas that they rated the lowest, and the decision was to set a financial goal for the next 6 weeks. (6 weeks in the length of time of the internship, however I have spoke to my client about continuing after the first 6 weeks).

So they set a goal to save 10% and off we went to determine the potential action steps to help make saving money happen. Each question I asked came back to the same answer. Everything circled back to this one main theme.

God. The relationship with God. The trust in God.

So I named this. I don't know if it's considered leading or not (I'll ask my trainer though) "I know we set a goal for saving money, but I am hearing you bring up God alot in your answers/conversation, where is your heart at this point?"

At that moment my heart was leading the conversation, and once we switched gears to speak of their relationship with God, everything just clicked.

Action steps were decided and although they lack a support system immediately, I reminded them that I will be there for them. To provide the best S.E,A I can. They know that I will be checking in, but they don't know when or how. So I have the upper hand in terms of providing the best encouragement and accountability.

At the end of the session I wanted to debrief, to find out what their biggest takeaway was and what they thought about everything.

The take away was they are ready and excited and emotional because they know it's going to be a great experience. It fills my heart with overwhelming love and joy to know that through the power of the holy spirit speaking through me, I can touch someone else's life.

Our church sermon today talked a little about these things. Saying Yes to God changes the world. He will bring about blessings in unexpected places. My internship client is as much of a blessing to me as I am to them.

Greater is he living in me than he who is in the world.

As for the technical parts of coaching, I didn't stress, I remained in the moment, fully present and aware and I was able to coach from my heart. I think in terms of meeting all of the objectives for the coaching curriculum, I was successful.

In terms of having a loving heart, just caring and loving my neighbor, I was right there. There is no promise that you will not endure a storm, even in the midst of God's will. But there is the promise that you will not endure the storm alone. No it was not perfect, however I rest in knowing that it is not up to me to make decisions. When you give yourself over to God, you have a peace that does not bring about worrying.

I just bask in the joy that I feel and the love and hope I desire to show and the happiness I want to share.

YOU SHALL LOVE THE LORD YOUR GOD WITH ALL YOUR HEART, AND WITH ALL YOUR SOUL, AND WITH ALL YOUR MIND, AND WITH ALL YOUR STRENGTH.' 31"The second is this, 'YOU SHALL LOVE YOUR NEIGHBOR AS YOURSELF.' Mark 12:30-31

Marathon Coach Training - Saturday Peer Meeting and Workshop

After going to the retreat two weekends ago, it has been great to see how God has worked in my life, specifically my self- image and my marriage and relationships with others. It is one thing to say that you are giving everything over to God, and another thing to actually do it.

There is something so liberating to take the pressure off of yourself and seek your identity in Christ and his plan for you. There seems to be a theme in my posts, to breaks the bonds that bind you to this world so you are free to live out your ultimate purpose and his plan for you life. Considering this, it is amazing how God connected me to my internship and as promised I will share that story.

After the retreat, I received a facebook request from a woman that was also at the retreat that we share a mutual friend. I thought it was really nice to be friended, especially since we did not talk to each other directly at the retreat. Then on Tuesday I saw that she posted that she was convicted by the message of the retreat and she is ready to get some things in order. Without skipping a beat I messaged her, explaining everything about coaching and what I can offer. Not thinking that she was respond and actually be interested, she did! She replied saying that she would love to work together! On Thursday morning I also spoke with her on the phone and after my conversation with her, I am more than ready to begin coaching her on Saturday! I am not sure what I will be coaching her on, but one common thread is that we've decided that God put us in the place we are, and has orchestrated this relationship.

Fast forward to Saturday morning, the last day of the unsupervised peer meeting where my peer and I got to share our progress and final thoughts and debrief about our coaching abilities. Bottom line, we were both very gracious about God and the insight he gave us regarding our respective issues. I took that gracious attitude in with me to the workshop where during one activity we got the chance to coach one of our classmates. The way the activity worked was there was one main coach and a backup coach, I ended up being the back up coach to be "tagged" when the main coach was stuck.

I sat there and waited to be tagged by her, and it wasn't until the end of the session she tagged me in, and I was able to ask an accountability question. I realized that we have different coaching styles. She was asking surface level fact-gathering questions, and towards the end I asked a question about knowing the solutions discussed which one could she commit to for the upcoming week? This allowed for her to become emotional and able to reevaluate her situation. It was very rewarding to be able to help her see a potential solution to her problem (through the power of the holy spirit).

During the workshop it was also a time of giving and receiving feedback regarding coaching styles and our "elevator speech". We had to give a short blurb about what our niche is as a life coach and what we do as a life coach. I explained myself as a "personal change expert" and that I wanted to partner with people to help them reach their ultimate potential as children of God. While I have this idea as my niche, the thought of focusing on this type of growth is intimidating. I've still been prayerfully considering the focus that I want to have, and this point I am being lead to the same point each time.

Just the thought of being able to work with someone and help them achieve all the glory that God has planned for them, and help them get closer to God makes my heart full of joy and excitement. Now that I can say that my niche is "Breakthrough, Life Purpose and Life Balance" coaching, the next steps question that I seek guidance on is coaching as a business or coaching as a ministry.

I will end this post here and the next post will be about the above dilemma.

In light of my decided focus, I leave you with Proverbs 3:5-7, the only way to gain insight and wisdom is to openly seek and depend on the holy spirit.

Trust in the Lord with all of your heart and lean not on your own understanding, In all of your ways submit to him and he will make your paths straight.